Mar 9, 2025

Unfortunate Immediatism

If you are anything like me (chances are low but just in case if you’re a human at least), you’ve found yourself on this urge to reply people, be in on DM, social media or the like. It drives me insane because nowadays it seems that all the time is the necessary time to answer other people.

Are they doing their own stuff on the restroom or their bedrooms with spouse or the like? Are they alive? Have they survived even another day? Oh geez, I haven’t heard from them in like 43 seconds, something must be worng… Of course, this is an underestimation, but maybe there are a few people that consider things like these, to a certain extent, and then you cannot even for the slightest of time, do your own things.

Mar 8, 2025

Happiness on Demand

Is there such a thing as happiness on demand?

Just now I was watching this Youtube video entitled: “You Will Never Own Anything (But You’ll Pay Forever)” by Moon. It talks about how Gen-Z in particular got to the point where most are struggling to pay off all their subscriptions, while enrolling in debt and not keeping any of it, not owning anything.

Then, just right at the end of the video it said something alone the lines: “Everything is there on demand, it’s all accessible.” And that suddenly got me thingking of the title of this small rant: “Is there such a thing as happiness on demand”?

Mar 5, 2025

Different Spaces

I was reading through the comments from a 2003 David Foster Wallace’s interview and one of them captured something quite interesting, here it goes:

@NASkeywest - 3 years ago I am nowhere nearly as intelligent as DFW but I can feel and relate to him so much on an emotional level. His mannerisms, the way he seems to cringe at his own thoughts, the way he tries to gauge the room for others opinions or thoughts. I go throughout my life in an almost constant state of discomfort. I can be talking to someone and working, carrying on a full conversation, but I’m my head I am in a totally different space.

Mar 5, 2025

In Silence

There are a certain number of unexpected moments that seems to haunt you, whenever you feel the most vulnerable. I had just watched an unseemingly 1m58s Youtube video that incredibly hit me like a brick being tossed right into my stomach. “Did People Used to Just Sit in Silence?” was the title and one comment that struck me the most was the following:

I lost a very important friendship around 2 years ago. The grieving process was brutal, I felt like I was walking around with my whole chest collapsing for the first 6 months. ‘Escaping’ to social media somehow made it way worse. All the constant information did the opposite of filling the void - it overwhelmed me when I needed space more than ever. I started walking every morning just in complete silence, then I would dedicate 30 mins everyday to just sit and reflect. It truly helped me regain peace because it allowed me to look inward and sit with my feelings, feeling everything, reflecting, and developing a method for self soothing. Sitting in silence would help us to connect with ourselves - and in times like this where we easily get drowned by everything, it’s more important than ever.

Mar 4, 2025

The Other

The hardship of connections, or thus has that ever hit you in any way? Probably being together with family members in such a Christmas party or some other occasion and not feeling really there, or that the conversations lack any kind of meaningful objective. It seems like as we grow older these tendencies tend to solidify, and I wonder if that is because maybe we’ve lost our naive sense of the world, as when we were children and expected the adults to know what is going on.

Mar 3, 2025

Some Thoughts

This one took way too long. Be it procrastination, working too many hours or the like, in the end maybe it was more just an excuse to not devote time for a personal project of mine.

Reasons? Just a few, honestly, but mostly due to the lack of disposition of interacting with people nowadays.

Not that I haven’t tried, believe me. I have, and lots of times just outright failed at it so then, what were some of the last resorts that I had in order to express my toughts? (Not that being together with someone would automagically make such a thing possible, but anyhow…) Technology comes to the rescue then.